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Feb. 4th, 2004 07:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ink_splotchLife is so deeply frustrating right now, and it's so me. I can't be bothered to do my homework, I am sorely tempted to skip school tomorrow. I have been snooty, hot headed and snapppy all day, with exceptions of bouts of extreme petulance. I don't know why I get like this, but I tend to trip over something and get into a funk. I want pity. I want time off. I want to not have to do my homework, I want to be someone else, and it fucking pisses me off. it pisses me off that I won't pull myself together, be it homework, school, weight or friendship. I have this fucking unapproachabilty sheild up, right here and no further, and I don't know how to remove it, or how to make it go away. Also, I'm way too shy to actually pull myself together at that point.
Argh. I am so fucking sick of myself. I just want to curl up and scratch until I have no skin left. I want out, I want this to stop, I want to have some sembelence of control.
In other news: Blah. I wonder if Fona2000 has Star Trek.
I'm off, no, not to do homework, but rather, to read slash to cheer myself up.
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yufang!!! This is Ina from my class, and she is most sweet, so everyone go be nice to her (If ever she actually posts ;-))!
Argh. I am so fucking sick of myself. I just want to curl up and scratch until I have no skin left. I want out, I want this to stop, I want to have some sembelence of control.
In other news: Blah. I wonder if Fona2000 has Star Trek.
I'm off, no, not to do homework, but rather, to read slash to cheer myself up.
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yufang!!! This is Ina from my class, and she is most sweet, so everyone go be nice to her (If ever she actually posts ;-))!
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Date: 2004-02-04 05:56 pm (UTC)Also, welcome
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Date: 2004-02-04 05:58 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2004-02-04 06:11 pm (UTC)And I know how you feel, because that is exactly how *I've* felt all day.
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Date: 2004-02-04 06:12 pm (UTC)Aw, poor you! ::more hugs::: (I swear, Febuary is the Monday of monthes)
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Date: 2004-02-04 06:19 pm (UTC)Oh, it so is. Although I think it has more to do with the weather being all nice and stuff, and the holiday being only two days away. I know my skin itches like mad to relax. But first; Biology and Italian. ::sighs::
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Date: 2004-02-04 06:21 pm (UTC)I think it's frustration about the drop in my performance in class, the amount of homework I do, the fact that I haven't done my chem yet and the fact that I feel as if school is rapidly becoming futile. I feel fed up.
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Date: 2004-02-04 06:27 pm (UTC)I think that all of what you'r describing is simply that you need a break where you don't think about school. We all need it, I suppose. Just... hang in there, alright?
You could tell your teachers that you aren't participating as much as you'd like because you aren't feeling well (it wouldn't be a lie). In my experience they just say "alright". They aren't inhumane.
::hugs you and sends you Freya::
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Date: 2004-02-04 06:28 pm (UTC)Probably.
I don't want to whine to my teachers. i feel like I should be able to pull myself together, you know?
::adores you!:::
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Date: 2004-02-04 06:32 pm (UTC)I... wouldn't call it whining, and I don't think they'd see it as whinign, either. You have your off days, and they know that. Your telling them means that you're aware of it, and that you're haven't suddenly - I don't know how to express it, but this'll have to do - gotten worse. You need a break, and they've seen it many times before. They'll be understanding.
This really is turning into the mutual adoration society again. ::adores you right back!::
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Date: 2004-02-05 11:48 am (UTC)You may be right, you know. Thank you! Is it indefinitely helpful to have a senseible person aroujnd ;-)
Hehe!
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Date: 2004-02-05 03:40 pm (UTC)Anytime, you know ;-)
::grins::
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Date: 2004-02-04 07:16 pm (UTC)How's that for cheering up? ;)
{{{{{{{{{{HUGS!!!!}}}}}}}}}}}
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Date: 2004-02-05 06:58 am (UTC):-D
{{{{{{{hugs back!!!!!!!}}}}}}}}}