just like the moon you light up the night

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Girls of St.Mary's - SGA, NC-17. I know everyone and their mother have recced this fic already, but still - it's just that good. It really is, all hot and awkward in the first two parts, and then brilliant and heart-breaking and real in the second part, and seriously? 1950s school girls making out. Why are you still reading this?

In other news, as of tomorrow, I should be done with all of my written work this term. Okay, so it's late coming, but hey, I'm done and that's something.

It's something that means I should start revising and I really should know what I want to do next year and why is this stupid year so stressful? I mean, I love this and all, I really do, but right now? A year off almost sounds like a good idea. No papers! No homework! No panicking about deadlines! On the other hand, crappy job back in Denmark. Err. Maybe not that good. Hum.

Comments

[lattara.livejournal.com]

Go you! You've definitely earned a cookie, that's all I can say.

But I'm sorry that you're stressed out. :(

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

Yay!

I just wish - well, I wish my exam would fuck off, as it is pointless, yet adds to my general stress levels - I wish I knew what I was doing next year. Or that I had a back-up plan, should "apply for masters" fail. The future's kind of big, and scary, and right fucking there, you know?

[lattara.livejournal.com]

I know exactly what you mean. But there's just nothing to do about it, is there? I mean, you haven't got control over anything, so there's nothing to do but breathe and just... deal.

*hugs*

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

I suppose *pouts*

(also, personal statements are evil. What do you mean, I have to be able to articulate why I want to get in? I do! Surely that's enough)

[lattara.livejournal.com]

I really love how helpful I'm being right now. Um, sorry?

(ahahaha. I want to get in... so I can pick up girls.)

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

S'okay. Though, any ideas on the personal statement would be appreciated :)

(I am a woman and I am gay. Mostly, I'm just looking for an oppurtunity to talk about myself. Incessantly.)

[lattara.livejournal.com]

I don't even know what they're looking for, but if you tell me, I can give it a shot?

(I also want to write a book about the oppression I have met in the academic system. I promise I'll mention you!)

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

I am attempting to apply to this. I have some points: I want to do more than *just* literary analysis; I have long been interested in gender and sexuality; sussex is awesome, yay; I want to go for a Ph.D.

(I look forward to this!)

[lattara.livejournal.com]

That looks absolutely awesome. I would so apply for that if I... actually had the time. Or was able to.

Some pompous ideas:
literary analysis becomes an empty vessel if one cannot understand the protagonists - or rather, the ones who have often been passed over as protagonists (Hello, Judith, Shakespeare's imaginary sister).
This means that gender studies will give you an entirely new perspective on not only the world as it is now, but also on how it used to be, and how these states have determined and influenced literature in its form, content and underlying ideas.
Not only that, but gender is a fundamental part of how we see the world - it's one of the first things we characterize people by, but what does it *mean*? What does it *entail*? This is what you want to study.

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

Interestingly, I've already kind of written about that:

My particular interest is how gender and sexuality is portrayed in media, particularly, as representation both influences and informs our view of society. Furthermore, our perception of society is coloured by our ideas of gender – and to a lesser extent sexuality – to a degree where it is hard to imagine society without gender models or gender roles. This is part of what I find so intriguing about gender studies; although the ideas and acts of gender change, there is still an insistence on its importance in society. The representation of gender and sexuality, then, is both contemporary and historical, with literary, political and sociological relevance.

(hello, pretension wagon. Mind if I hitch up my cart?)

I just can't figure out what else to write. Hmm.

[lattara.livejournal.com]

I actually really like that.

I don't exactly know what else to write, either - I mean, that's very concise, and to expand on it would only seem like you were trying to hard. Or something. Gosh, I don't know.

When does it need to be finished?

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

Well, I've uploaded the damn thing now, so hopefully it passes muster. Argh, I hate applying for things. It gives me a stomach ache :(

[lattara.livejournal.com]

I know, bb. *rubs your tummy*

But look, you've got excellent grades, yeah? Of course they want you.