sidste time, sidste nat, sidste skrig.

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Nine days left and we're planning a boycott of the Senior Dinner, I have two essays left, one art project and I can't quite believe it's almost over.

Speaking of, does anyone have Sidste Time? And would such persons be inclined to share it with me? I'm getting all nostaligic, and it's good for that.

Anyway, gotta go make sure Freya and I can spend time together this summer.

*

God, I'm in such a weird place lately.

Comments

[http://users.livejournal.com/trobany__/]

Aww.. that's not too fun. May I ask how long you two have been together or friends or whatever? Cos it seems like quite a while and I'm just curious. You can tell me to get my nose out of other people's business if you'd like. :D

Oh it's very strange alright. But.. but.. uh.. *hugs*

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

It really isn't.

We've been together coming up on 3½ years. S'a long time.

*hugs back*

[http://users.livejournal.com/trobany__/]

Awww! That's so beautiful. Very, very glad to hear that. I hope I can get that lucky.

*throws confetti and such*

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

It is kinda cool.

I'm sure it'll be just as amazing for you and Peter. ♥

[http://users.livejournal.com/trobany__/]

Hee, you Danes definitely rock at this whole "maintaining a normal, loving relationship" thing, something I've noticed many Americans (around our age, anyway) cannot even begin to fathom. ♥

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

In defense of teenagers around the world, everyone sucks at relationships. Even us in who've got three years; and what people want at this stage of life is so different, hormones and all, so yeah. It's kind of understandable.

[http://users.livejournal.com/trobany__/]

That's quite true. I tend to forget how everyone else is and how I kinda skipped that whole wild, crazy, teenager insanity stage. Don't know if skipping it was necessarily a good thing or not, but ah well. Not that I skipped it entirely, of course. Still quite silly and teenage-angsty occassionally. Because I = all things silliness. Queen of the Silliness Kingdom, nearly.

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

I have a theory that we all go through teenaged insanity, just in different ways.

I went the way of extreme pretensiousness and arrogance.

[http://users.livejournal.com/trobany__/]

Sounds like a rather well supported theory, really, cos it's quite true. I went through (am still going through, technically) with lots of fighting with myself and going as against everything as I can, because I don't want to be another teenage fuck up. I've only got two friends left that haven't completely gone off the deep end with drug abuse and premiscuous sex and getting piss drunk at every opportunity. So now I've forced myself to believe that I wouldn't turn out like that, and I kept pushing myself further and further away from the "norm" and how I'm "supposed to be" and now I'm so far out that sometimes I even forget who I am at all. And that's not fun. The only times I finally relax are with books and music and movies and friends, so, y'know. And it's so ironic cos this is what I had initially wanted from the beginning -- isolation so I wouldn't be influenced. And now I'm not so sure that it was a great plan and it's a bit too late for that. A tiny part of me thinks part of my reason/logic for moving so far away is being able to start off in a new country with new faces and new everything. But that's only a silly part of me, really. Does any of this make sense? It does in my head.. but.. welllll..

Oops. I'm sorry for kind of pouring my heart and soul into all that. Didn't mean to bombard you with all this. *hugs*

(And the even more ironic thing is most of the time, I really am quite happy with my life and love my friends and family more than I can express. It's just silly times when I realize I'm kinda messed. But aren't we all?)

For listening to me rant, you win a prize: a free pretty song, called Exhibit 13 by the Blue Man Group. http://download.yousendit.com/2B31B4B14CF18AE8

[vampirespider.livejournal.com]

I know the feeling - I was pretty much the same at 16 (I'd say I've loosen up since, but, eh...) And everyone is messed up - it's just the moments of happiness that make up for it, I figure. ♥

Thank you for the song, darling - and I'm always happy to hear you rant; s'what I'm here for!