ink_splotch | (no subject)

Life is so deeply frustrating right now, and it's so me. I can't be bothered to do my homework, I am sorely tempted to skip school tomorrow. I have been snooty, hot headed and snapppy all day, with exceptions of bouts of extreme petulance. I don't know why I get like this, but I tend to trip over something and get into a funk. I want pity. I want time off. I want to not have to do my homework, I want to be someone else, and it fucking pisses me off. it pisses me off that I won't pull myself together, be it homework, school, weight or friendship. I have this fucking unapproachabilty sheild up, right here and no further, and I don't know how to remove it, or how to make it go away. Also, I'm way too shy to actually pull myself together at that point.

Argh. I am so fucking sick of myself. I just want to curl up and scratch until I have no skin left. I want out, I want this to stop, I want to have some sembelence of control.

In other news: Blah. I wonder if Fona2000 has Star Trek.

I'm off, no, not to do homework, but rather, to read slash to cheer myself up.

ETA: Welcome

yufang!!! This is Ina from my class, and she is most sweet, so everyone go be nice to her (If ever she actually posts ;-))!